8:48 pm on Friday June 19, 2015
I only wore simple makeup today. Did my eyebrows, highlighted my inner corner and my brow bone, put a few coats of mascara on my lashes. I worked for almost six hours at the job that I am the least passionate about. I freaked out that there are only 105 days until Justin and I get married. I realized that I do not know how to be an adult, to be responsible and do things like pay the bills and cash checks and leave the house when it's the absolute last thing I feel like doing. I feel like I have entered into my summertime rut, and the first step to getting out is admitting that it exists. I am trying. And trying is all that I can do.