October 06, 2015

magic monday (on tuesday)

My grandma's funeral is today. I am FOR SURE feeling all the things. I just thought it was fitting on Magic (Tuesday) that my grandma had a sign on her door that said Magical Mary Jane that my mom took from the nursing home when she went to collect her things. Today will inevitably be one of the hardest days of my life. I have to say goodbye to the woman I have spent my entire life with. 

Today I'm going to learn what family really means. It will be a far cry from what I thought it meant in 2012 & 2013, when everyone was clawing frantically trying to tear each other apart. I hope my grandma's spirit shines down on us today, and teaches us to look toward the light in the hard times. 

Today I'm leaning on my good humans, because they are all I have left. They are my sunshine in the middle of this gaping hole that has been left in my heart. I need them now more than ever and I am so glad for all the support everyone has shown in the last few days. My family and I are so so thankful. 

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