October 26, 2014

flashback


Something I learned this weekend: things never go as planned. Instead of going to Burlington, I spent most of my Friday night at a diner in Fond du Lac waiting for my uncle to pick me up. Long story short is that I don't have a car for the time being. An even shorter story is that when I'm stranded in strange places I don't know very well, there's a pretty good bet you can find me heading into the restroom to take selfies to calm myself down.

Exhibit A: Friday night, stranded in Fond du Lac
Exhibit B: November 2011, stranded in the Savannah airport overnight

Week 43/52

October 24, 2014

see ya!


I'm off to Burlington for the weekend. I have a shoot planned for Saturday morning and I'm excited for best friend time, family dinner & Adrian's. Have a good weekend!

October 23, 2014

ode to october


It's cold enough in the mornings to need mittens and scarves, which means my coffee drinking on the balcony has been extra cozy lately. There are still some leaves hanging around on the trees but most of them make for extra pretty ground cover. Autumn really is my favorite season, one that I never take for granted after coming home from Savannah in 2011. It's magic. There's something in the air that makes everything full of inspiration and magic. October, you are my most favourite month by far. 

October 22, 2014

let's talk mascara


I wear makeup almost every day. I always fill in my eyebrows, and I always wear mascara. I usually use Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara that I received with their holiday palette last Christmas. I was recently invited to try Younique makeup's Moodstruck 3-D Fiber Lash Mascara and I have a love-hate relationship with it.

I love that it's all natural, and chemical & cruelty free. It's super simple to use. Coat your lashes in a thin coat of your regular mascara, put the Younique mascara over the top of that, then the fibers, then the Younique mascara again to bind it all. It definitely makes a statement... but it's not something I like to wear every day. THIS STUFF IS A PAIN TO GET OFF. I usually take all my makeup off before I shower, but when I wear this, I use a makeup wipe to take off what I can, shower, and then go back with another makeup wipe to get the rest after I get out of the shower. 

Overall, I love the look that this mascara provides. It's easy to do when I don't have the patience to do my eyeliner in the morning. But definitely invest in some oil based makeup remover to get this stuff off your eyes.

Get more info on Younique makeup here.

FTC: I was given this product free of charge in exchange for reviewing on my blog & some links are affiliate

October 21, 2014

looks like morning in your eyes


The best thing about working first shift is that I get to watch the sunrise almost every morning, and then I usually hum this quietly to myself every day. 2014 will always be known as the year I became a morning person.

October 19, 2014

reminiscent

The orange on the bottom is actually leaves that were very out of focus, but it kind of reminds me of a light leak. I love photography. This picture reminds me of shooting film, of being seventeen and carrying around my first film camera practically everywhere I went. I'm so in love with October.

Week 42/52

October 17, 2014

currently, october edition


watching Gilmore Girls on Netflix

reading Atonement by Ian McEwan

drinking pumpkin spice everything

knitting a blanket

working on new paintings

seeing halloween decorations everywhere

admiring all the beautiful fall colours

making progress on perfecting a hot cocoa recipe

missing my friends & family

looking forward to a trip home next weekend

October 12, 2014

long time no see

Sweater: Target, Jeans: Old Navy, Boots: Kmart, Scarf: DIY

Easing back into style pictures again. It feels so good to go take self portraits the old fashioned way, running back and forth trying to get your focusing halfway decent and racing the 10 second timer. I forgot how much better I always feel after taking self portraits. Carving out time in my to do list to take pictures is one of the best things I can ever do for myself. Self care, at its finest.

Week 41/52

October 11, 2014

vulnerable selfies


When I picked my one little word to be unafraid this year, I didn't know how much strength it would take. I started a little project called vulnerable selfies to help me embrace unafraid in January and I've been keeping it going stronger and stronger for the past 10 months. I mostly keep them to myself, but sometimes I share on my tumblr or very rarely on Instagram. They're so important to me to help me keep my mental health in check and ask for help when I need it.

Monday was a day that I needed it. I needed this project like I need air in my lungs. I was lost in the past, in an ugly world of flashbacks and numbness, hearing my abuser say my name over and over and over and over again. All I could do was lay in bed, my blanket cocooned around me, and stare at the wall. I watched Phantom of the Opera on Netflix to keep me from going crazy. I sang the songs out loud to myself to keep me from crying. I needed some self portrait therapy to get all the hurt out of my heart and to get my feelings out into the world.

So I placed my phone on the windowsill, set up the self timer, and took picture after picture after picture until I felt like myself. Self portrait therapy at its finest hour. I've beat this to death, but I will say it again and again until I am blue in the face: I am so grateful for photography. It saved my life eight years ago when I was stumbling around in the dark trying to find something, anything, that made sense after what happened. And it saved my life again on Monday. Coping mechanisms are the best.

October 06, 2014

week 40


I learned how to finger knit and arm knit & I'm currently drowning in scarves. Love this knew hobby.

Week 40/52