channeling my inner angela chase

Dress & Vest & Necklace: Thrifted, Leggings: Walmart, Socks: Justin, Boots: Mom

Dear Angela, 

I know in the past I've caused you pain and I'm sorry. And I'll always be sorry 'till the day I die. And I hate this pen I'm holding because I should be holding you. I hate this paper under my hand because it isn't you. I even hate this letter because it's not the whole truth. Because the whole truth is so much more than a letter can even say. If you want to hate me, go ahead. If you want to burn this letter, do it. You could burn the whole world down; you could tell me to go to hell. I'd go, if you wanted me to. And I'd send you a letter from there. 

Sincerely, Jordan Catalano

My So-Called Life is a TV show from 1994 that rocked my world in the early 2000's. It only ran for one season, gaining a title as a cult classic. Claire Danes, Jared Leto, AJ Langer, Wilson Cruz & Devon Gummersall graced my TV every night and I fell in love.

I was in sixth grade the first time I ever heard the name Jordan Catalano. I wanted to be Angela Chase, I wanted to have friends like Rayanne and Ricky. I doodled Jordan Catalano's initials all over my notebooks. I started dyeing my hair red so I could be Angela. I danced around my room to "Blister in the Sun" just like Angela does in 1x17. When they moved My So-Called Life out of the primetime slots, I used to wake up at 4AM just to watch it. I was obsessed.

So now I'm channeling my inner Angela. I dyed my hair a fresh shade of Crimson Glow (and it's all one colour again! Hooray!), put on my '90s dress & my mom's boots and pranced around in the muddy park for half an hour. Definitely not a bad way to spend my last day being 21.

Week 16/52!