After a very long day at work where I came home and immediately fell into bed (and a 5 hour nap later #oops), my heart hurt the same dull ache that it's been hurting for the past few weeks. Maybe it's a combination of the weather and weird hours at work lately now that I'm transitioning from mostly nights to mostly days. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm in a rut. Maybe it's because this is just one of those things like last September was when I put my camera down for almost a month and got reinspired again. All I know right now is that I'm not devoting enough time to creative endeavors, and now I'm on the road to fix that.
I've been going through some heavy life stuff lately--mostly involving figuring out what I want from photography right now. When I work my day job, the one thought in the back of my head is "Jeez, I could be taking pictures right now." That right there tells me something has to change. I have been told by family and friends to go back to school. I have also been told that I don't need to go back to school because my talent and passion for photography is evident enough that I could make a career out of my photography just from what I'm doing now. Honestly, I'm on the fence about school. All I know for sure is that I don't want to be stuck in fast food for the rest of my life.
I just wanted to say thank you guys for reading and for your comments and emails and all the sweet words I've had thrown my way lately. I read every single message I receive, and it makes my heart swell with pride for this little space that it's turned into something people enjoy coming back to. Things might be weird around here for a little while, and I hope you guys know that I appreciate all the good vibes.
Weird isn't necessarily bad.
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